Transformation takes time

Transformation takes time, step by step, time after time putting in the effort. And after some time you look back and you have already changed.

Good day :)

How are you?

Today let's look into the topic — how long? When ? When is it going to change?

How long do I have to wait till I will be healed? When will it happen? When will things be changed?

These questions have been coming into my mind over these years and what I can tell you is that for me it has taken 3 years up until this point and I am not stopping. Changing step by step, day by day.

So let's look into it:)

A look into my transformation

3 years — a different person.

3 years ago I was so different. In many aspects, in many ways. I did not have or knew how to set boundaries. How to say and ask for what I desire. Have healthier conversations. Enjoy my own company, oh my, this was a struggle. How to have peace and safety inside of me, how to love my whole being and not judge any of it. So much more.

I did not know how to smile in the mirror and love what I see.

Have you had that experience?

Then through thoughts, ideas, conversations , daily life I received new perspectives, one step after the other. Tears, joys , pain, heartbreak, realizations, asking the Universe WHY?, understanding more of the why, learning, realizing, changing, experiencing, feeling and being.

It all over these 3 years has added up and look at that — a different person. Making better choices, saying no, setting healthier boundaries , following more of what my heart wants, enjoying my own company, not afraid to feel, not afraid to be alone. By no means am I perfect, don't get me wrong. But am I different than I was ? 100 %.

How much I had wished for everything to happen quick, but I realize the Universe has it's own Divine timing. So I just keep going. Three years have now been walked in this path and that is just the beginning. Worth celebrating, worth noticing, acknowledging, feeling and appreciating. Keep going.

Transformation takes time

Many evenings I went to sleep hoping to be changed the next morning, hoping everything would be changed for me in seconds. But what really happened?

Every day I woke up and put effort in for the change. I saw where I was going for even if it was blurry. I saw how it could be, how I wanted it to be. Even if a tiny bit.

But over time , over these three years, I have changed so much. And it happened day by day, practice after practice, implementing what I learned. And so many times I was in a very low point, crying and praying, but deep down I knew that it would be changed, that it can be different.

I know I am using a lot of “it's” and not being specific. Because this post is not meant for anything specific, like just self — love, like setting boundaries, a healthier mindset or just joy, but it's meant to be about all of it. About everything, when will everything change? When will I be able to be, do, live different?

Transformation takes time.

And I am so proud of you, you are here, you keep going, you keep hoping, putting in the work. You can !

Let this be a little light in your journey, come back whenever you need it :)

Okay, now I am gonna go ;) but I know you can do it, I know you can keep going, you can keep believing.

You got this!

Have a great day ahead (or an amazing sleep).

With love and light,

Ella Renāte