Coming back to yourself doesn't start with change

We're used to waiting for the right moment, an occasion, a sign, a reason...

Every one of us has had this thought at least once:

"Once this difficult period is over—then I'll finally start living the way I want."

We postpone change until Monday, next month, vacation, a move, a new job, or the moment we feel more confident. We believe that circumstances need to fall into place first, and only then will we find the strength, peace, and sense of inner ground beneath our feet.

This kind of waiting seems perfectly reasonable. It really is hard to think about personal dreams when urgent problems need solving. But gradually, this habit starts spreading to everything else. We postpone not just big decisions, but small joys too—rest, creativity, self-care, honest conversations, even our own feelings.

Little by little, our life becomes preparation for a future that never arrives.

And one day, a strange feeling emerges. It seems we've always been busy with important things, constantly moving forward, yet somehow we've been drifting further and further from ourselves.

It's as if we're standing in the entryway of our own life, still wearing our coat. Waiting for when we can finally come in. But the door has been open all along..

Why we associate a new life with change

The return begins with attention

It happens more quietly than we think

Being present with yourself is a skill

Small steps that don't seem significant, but they matter

🌙 The Practice of Silence